What would you do if one day you woke up and found out you had cancer?
I think I would.. be shocked and sad at first, but then I think I'd live life pretty normally after, if not better. I guess it depends on the kind of cancer. If I can have surgery I'd do that, but I'm not sure I'd want to deal with chemo. Maybe it goes hand-in-hand with surgery though. I don't really know how all that works. I'll fight for a bit, but I won't spend my life fighting. When the ratio between fighting and living starts to become more fighting than living I'll stop fighting and just live till I die. Kind of a morbid entry topic, huh? I'm just thinking out "loud".
I wish I knew how to live better now, how to live out louder than I am right now. I wish I knew how to live how He wants me to live. I wish there were a step-by-step instruction manual. I'd obey it to the "T". At least I think I would. I don't like these obscure, non-specific instructions. It leaves us with too much room for mistakes, faltering and second-guessing every decision.
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I feel like His commands are pretty straightforward. It's the fact that we can't see Him that kills me.
If I woke up one day and found out I had cancer, I prolly won't tell anyone because I would just be a walking omen, and everyone will pity me and be all sad and be awkward. I think I'd just let it be.
Or I would do what you would do. Your option seems very reasonable to me :)
@sundae_oops - No, I agree that His commands are straight forward. That's not what I think stinks. I want like... serious step by step instructions... like an IKEA furniture construction manual. I want someone to tell me when to take a step, how, how fast, how long and where to turn type deal. Ask me to jump, and I'll ask how high. I want really detailed instructions.
About cancer, I understand the urge to hide it. If I did, I might do that at first too. I wouldn't broadcast it, but I'd ask those close and semi-close to pray for me. It's the best time to bring together as much prayer possible. I really hope I don't have cancer after all this talk about cancer though. I guess mortality/death has been on my mind lately. Not sure why.
The other day I was also thinking... I really don't fear death itself, but how death comes. Like I really don't want to get attacked and killed by a shark whilst swimming in the ocean.. or any animal for that matter! lol.. That would be horrible. I'd rather die of cancer.