I remember what my dream was about! Sort of...
As I was climbing into bed last night glimpses of my dream flashed back. It wasn't a wedding... I was pregnant! I don't think I was married yet or.. I dunno, but I think we (don't remember who "we" is) were trying to keep it hush hush. I was so happy though and excited. Thinking about it now is actually making me tear a little. I really want a baby. haha.. like I was telling Connie the other day.. I think if I had to choose between a husband and a child, I'd pick a child. I want to actually give birth though.. so I don't know how that would work.. but I guess I could adopt too. I mean I didn't give birth to Joanne, but I'm so in love with her.. I think I would give my life for hers if it ever came to that. Mattheson too. He's so cute. I want a kid!! haha... I think that's a big reason why I would want to get married. Aside from that... I think I'm starting to be okay with if I never get married. I just want to live life, married or not. Of course it'd be nice to go through life with a companion, but it's not necessary, it's not the only key to happiness even in the worldly sense.
I would put my life on hold, put aside my own dreams and ambitions for a child. For a husband... I'm not so sure. He'll have to wait if he really wants to marry me, or at least understand and support me. haha.. I just say all this now though. It might change, but that's just how I feel today. :P
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