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Wednesday, 09 December 2009

Testing out the lenses for my Kodak Zi8. I'm pretty happy for the most part. Telephoto lens were a little disappointing, but I guess it could be used for effect. I love the fish-eye and the macro though.

Facebook embedding quality sucks. Better to watch the HD on Facebook if you want.
On a bleh note: I woke up a little sick, called in sick and got more sick. Still drinking/gurgling water with salt, garlic and vinegar. I actually kinda like it though. haha.. but yeah, it's that time again when my throat hurts and I'm almost positive it means I have an ear infection. It's this weather, man...

On a good note: I wrote a song. One of the better ones out of all my more than mediocre ones, I think. But it's late so we'll see if I think the same tomorrow.

On a happy note: My brother and I surprised our parents with their Christmas present early. We got them the new 21.5" iMac.

My mom's having a blast playing with it and trying to learn how to use it. My dad totally missed it. He walked right by it, stopped and looked at it, and walked to the bathroom. Came back out looking at it wondering why we're all smiling and laughing and he picks up the Magic Mouse thinking that's what's causing all the commotion. He thought we got an iPhone or something. We give him another minute or two to finally realize there's also a new Apple keyboard and an iMac RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM!! He goes.. "OHHH!!! Is that Apple??? HA HA HA HA HA..." and explains how all he noticed out of the ordinary was the Magic Mouse thinking it was an iPhone and pats my bro and me on the back and shoulders saying, "Ohhh thank you! Thank you! Ha ha ha... thank you." LOL!

Btw, I LOVE the Magic Mouse. I want to buy an iMac for myself now just so I can use one.

Monday, 07 December 2009

Tired. When am I not tired? Blah...

Friday, 04 December 2009

When I'm in la la land.. I dream about stupid silly stuff like... getting a song written about me. lol.. How awesome would that be though? To be someone's inspiration? Haha, I don't care if I'm not mentioned by name or if I'm mentioned because I only stood out due to my weirdness or whatever as a fan. hahahaha.. I'm so stupid.

ANYHOO...

This has been the fastest work week and probably the best work week I've had all year.. or ever for that matter!

Monday: Continued decorating our department from last Wednesday before the T-day break.
Tuesday: Christmas tree lighting ceremony in the morning. Department Christmas party in the afternoon.
Wednesday: Used my last personal day to go see Brandi Carlile and band at Borders (Columbus Circle). Picked up Vicky around St. Marks and had.. supper(?) at Mitsuwa.
Thursday: Christmas tree decorating contest judging in the morning. In the afternoon we all walked around the building with Christmas treat bags (it was like trick-or-treating!) checking out other departments' trees, having snacks, taking snacks, drinking hot cider, hot chocolate, having fake snowball fights with marshmallows and cotton balls, taking pictures and videos of the dressed up carolers singing in costume, and various brass quartets scattered throughout the building playing Christmas songs.
Friday: Left over goodies and cupcakes to munch on. Practically no work to do. I'm on Facebook and writing on Xanga. lol..

Total number of hours actually worked all week so far? Maybe an hour.. if even that. lol.. it's not like I'm trying to not do any work either. I keep asking my boss if there's anything I can do and she just goes... "Uhh... not right now..." Although today was a little better. She was like "Uhh... not really. Oh.. well.. maybe you can just back Good News [(one of our monthly publications)] up." So that's something, but truth be told... I already backed up what she told me to back up everything up till the current issue. LOL

And then...
Next Thursday: Territorial headquarters Christmas party.
Next Friday: Program section Christmas party.

The only sad thing is.. all the Christmas-y stuff is happening so early that the closer we get to December 25th.. it won't be as... well.. Christmas-y. I don't know why they do that. I think maybe it's because most of the higher ranking officers and cabinet members will probably be on vacation by then so they make it earlier. Oh well... :T

Tuesday, 01 December 2009

I feel like there's a fork in the road ahead.

I could stay here, try to move forward here, go to school here, finish school, and keep doing what I'm doing, which isn't much. And just hope for something to happen, for life to progress.

OR

I could go to school somewhere else, find a job and see where that leads. It'll eventually be another fork in the road and I'll need to decide if I'll make a life for myself wherever it is I end up, or come back here to either start over or pick up where I left off.

To be honest, "here" sometimes feels like a dead end. I've hit a wall and I can't seem to get over it. It's like I'm in a hamster wheel... running, but not really going anywhere.

I want to end up back home though to settle down. Of that I'm pretty sure. But who knows what will really happen. I'm probably just daydreaming again.

The only thing that is really keeping me from committing to leaving indefinitely is the fact that.. I feel like I'm going to grow old while I'm away. I'll come back here when I'm in my late twenties. Not that I'm anywhere near my goal, but the latest I ever wanted to ideally get married is 27. If I leave that will be very even more unlikely. Unless... I meet someone while I'm away and they are willing to move back to NJ/NY with me. lol

Ahh... I hate thinking about the future, but days like today I feel the pressure to.

Perhaps I'll have to resort to a pros and cons list. I've never done that before. I have a feeling it might not work though. 'Cause even if it does, it doesn't mean I'll follow through with the results.

Man, even if I did decide to go somewhere else for school though... I don't know where I would go. I've been looking all over the country. Maybe I'll go to Nashville. hehe... I would go to Seattle, but I don't know how good the schools are there for graphic design. California's a definite possibility I guess, but for some reason I wouldn't want to go there. I feel like there's some kind of social pressure that goes along with living there for some reason. Then there's Florida.. but it might be too hot for me. Then there's also Chicago.. but I just imagine the stereotypical windiness (I can't stand wind) and for some reason I imagine an empty town on weekends or even just after business hours. Not sure why or if it's even remotely like that. Boston maybe? But that just doesn't seem like my scene. I feel like I'd be surrounded by smarty pants. lol.. So I guess with everything I wrote Nashville seems like my top choice. NY/NJ is also good though, but that's if I don't leave.