April 26, 2011
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I feel broken. I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe everything.
I think the problem is I have these high ideals and expectations of what life should be like, of how I'm supposed to live my life.. therefore I don't even try to match those expectations because it seems too hard to live up to. Then I'm left wondering what to do with myself instead. It's really rather stupid. It's my own fault. I know I need to try anyway, but I can't seem to bring myself to.
UPDATE. These thoughts always come after a lull in life... like a not too productive work-free Monday after a long hiatus from work. That or when I feel like just another cog in "the machine", when routine begins to feel like death again. Now that I'm going back to work, the big question now is... how long will it take to feel this way again?
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what had helped me was going on an adventure by myself. or with people that I'm comfortable being around when I feel like being alone. praying for you.
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