April 27, 2011

• I wonder.. is there ever a point where you stop contemplating the meaning of life? Even as a Christian? Do people just figure it out or realize it one day and then are set? Or is just that they've discovered a life-long project and task that keeps them busy long enough to feel like they have figured it out? Or do they just pretend they've figured it out, go about living their lives in this world hoping that the way they live it is enough?

  I know the "right" Christian answer to "the meaning of life" but I want to see it lived out. I can think of the most Christian person I know, the best role models, mentors, teachers a person could ever have, and I still wonder... is that it? Maybe I'm thinking too grand. I'm expecting radical, but I even think about the radical people I know who are living relatively radical lives compared to the majority of the people I know and yet.. I still feel a disconnect somewhere, something lacking. Perhaps at this present moment I am incapable of understanding or seeing things with the right perspective.

  Have I become jaded? I think maybe I'm just looking for the perfect answer which there may not be one of. Maybe it's all just relative. I mean I do believe God creates each person for a specific role and reason and not everyone's lives will look the same, but I dunno..

  I think I'm having another case of the.. too much thinking and not enough doing something about it.

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