May 18, 2011

• Just had a sudden thought/fear. What if Jesus came back 2 seconds from now? I'd be ashamed cause I'm not ready.

  It's another one of those moments where I feel like I'm wasting my life away and not doing my part, whatever that may be. I don't think I'd ever feel ready unless I felt like I was working for Him full-time.

  I used to be so fine with the idea of Him coming back at any moment. It's not that I'm insecure about what will happen to me, but I'm just.. ashamed. I'd rather die "naturally" before He comes back. For some reason I feel like I'd feel less guilty that way than if he just walked into my life right now. I know He knows everything, sees everything already, etc, but.. I dunno... I'd just feel more at ease to die first.

  Wow. Many times I write things I've thought before and jsut didn't get to write yet or it's something I've even written before, but was just reminded of... but this one is completely new. A new thought. A new fear. Wow.

  • 9:45 pm
  • Comments Off